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Thursday, January 31, 2008
8:14 PM

Nameless - One without a name

I'm nameless.
Nothing I do has any meaning
None of these useless words falling from my lips hold any comfort or wisdom
None of my feelings ever really show
Nothing true in my life
Nothing but lies
I am worthless
and therefore
I am Nameless


wow what's wrong with me?? why the hell am i so emo?? >.<

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Sunday, January 13, 2008
2:11 PM

From http://www.everything2.com/ :

Open letter to God :

This is a rather odd little universe you created.

I guess I'm supposed to be asking, "Why, why?" Okay, I'll play along, just for the look of things.

Really, I did have one thing I'd like to ask... Look, you make all this, right? The earth, the air, the land and sea. You decided how all the world would be, what it looks like, how it behaves, what happens when I press this. And, of course, you make us. Humans. Homo Sapiens.

Now, one thing you did was to set up the world in a very specific way. You set everything up so that things make sense. B follows A; reaction comes after action; if A then B, A, therefore B; if A then B, not B, therefore not A. It was a very deliberate thing you did. Couldn't be by accident, of course.

So, you plunk us down in this world, with all these systems going on around us, things that we learn, things that we can see repeated over and over again, and can begin to predict. What's happening is we're starting to develop reason.

Reason isn't a human invention. Oh, no. It's the way the universe works. B follows A, mass attracts mass, if train A leaves Detroit heading east.... Well, you get the picture.

You made the world like this. And you made us able to see the world like this, able to see and appreciate and learn rational thought. And you made it so that our lives are much, much better off using it.

Medicine. Agriculture. Iron-working. Written language. Mathematics. Biology. Physics. Our lives are longer, gentler, and better. It's like giving us a cookie every time we use our brains; the universe you created rewards us when we use rational thought.

So, we have this faculty that allows us, with a little effort, to turn rocks into plows into wheat into bread. To turn wood into paper into words into Moby Dick. To turn dust into concrete into Hoover Dam. You gave us reason, and it was good. We went forth and multiplied upon the earth a million-fold.

Then, we come to the most important questions that each of us as individuals ask of ourselves in our lives. Who am I? Why am I here? What is this place? What should I do? How ought I live?
And we are commanded to throw down our hard-won
reason, our dearly-prized rational thought. We are told to ignore all that we have done, and the faculty with which we achieved.

We are told to take the answers of these questions on the polar opposite of reason.

We are told to take it all on faith.

We are told to believe that there is an all-powerful god out there, who is indeed swayed by our prayers, but chooses (for his own inscrutable reason) to not show himself directly.

We are told to live by a code of ethics that worked perfectly fine 2000 years ago for a tribe of nomadic shepherds.

We are told to forsake reason and embrace it's antithesis.

Now, I've always known you to be good for self-fulfilling prophecies. "God helps them who helps themselves," and such. I admit that this is all possible. But I only ask one thing.

Why did you go to such great pains to engineer a universe where reason is the rule, and then expect us, on pain of damnation, to forsake it for our most important questions?

Of course, everyone knows that you must not question the will of god, for he works in 'mysterious ways', ways that we as humans are not supposed to be able to understand. And yet god imbued us with a monkey-curiosity that compels us to stick our fingers in every light socket and press every button just to see what it does. We are creatures with immense curiosity, great capacity for logical thought, and you made us that way.

Some people may say this is the eternal tragedy of the human condition. I say to hell with that. They say it as if there were some kind of poetic beauty about tragedy on that scale. It is one thing to see a Shakespearean tragedy, but would you really want it to happen to you? For every day of your life? Because that's what it is. A sick practical joke played by you on us, to create a world in which things appear to make sense, but the only real winners are those who throw away reason.

I don't even care what the answer is. I don't. If this is the way the world works, then so be it. But I'll continue living my life as I have, by my rules, for my reasons. Rules and reasons that line up with reality, unlike some I wouldn't care to mention.

Special thanks to anyone reading all of this.

I found this on www.everything2.com.
It wraps up my feelings on the subject. =P

Disclaimer: i didn't write this

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Sunday, January 6, 2008
Emo People
5:13 PM

Anyone know who Pon and Zi are?? Well...
They are only the cutest Emo things EVER!!!!
i was looking at some of them and i thought they related to some of my friends!
so here they are...and even if your not mentioned in my captions, look anyways!!!
They are just SOOOOOOOO CUTE!!

This is why i hate spiders!!! *shudders*

Awwww! i want a pet!!!!

They be superheros! only they haven't gotten it quite right yet...

This made me giggle! it is so cute!!!!

Brianne! Sunshine! connection??

I feel your pain little dude! i hate snails...

Well at least then you can't get any gummy bear related injuries...lol

huh??? i was told it means i love you! =) maybe this is why guys don't unsderstand us...

LIZ! KITTY!!!!! Meow!

awwwww! imaginary hugs! see faithe! emo's can be cute!!!!

Sami- Sam! this reminded me of you!

awww! sad day! this makes me depressed...

Well that's life for ya...

OH-NO!!!! the love plague! is it contagious??

Sam b. I think this explains itself....lol

Liz!!! i don't know why this reminds me of you but it just does...=)

this is how i feel sometimes...just fishing for love....


yeah i'm with him! if i promise not to kill you can I have a hug too??

JORDAN!!!! this is so random it reminds me of you!!!! it's like something you would say!!!!

oh my how many times has everyone felt this way?? i know i'm like that ALL THE TIME!!!

The look on the blue one's face!!! O.o

Yes guys...Don't break my heart!!!

this reminds me of Aubrey and Toni and Kethe! it also makes me giggle! =P

Brianne? Liz? Nicole? this reminds me of you guys!!

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What I think about YOU...
3:13 PM

OK so I'm not a very patient person and i know that this will probably take forever and it will probably kill me (or at least be agonisingly painful) but my friends want me to make one of these things too so...

Disclaimer: this is a thing that i stole from my thieving friends who also stole it...

these are little paragraphs (or sentences... because i'm lazy) about what i think about most of the people i know.

Here goes:

You are my anchor. you help me through all the hard times and make me laugh when i'm sad (which is about half the time) Your one of my very best friends and i luv you for that. as a side note we are pretty cool frippin strippers, yo! =)

Your randomness amazes me. i am in awe of your mad skillz! =) hopefully we'll be friends till the world explodes (or gets blown up, either way.)

You make me giggle, and be happy. even when your super hyper or really sad you amaze me with your strength. Best Friends Forever! =)

I've read a lot of these little blips about you on various peoples blogs and i just have to say i wuv you. and even though i hate how your boyfriend is changing you, you'll always be a person with a bubbly( and blonde) personality that i can turn to for a hug.

I heart you. You are another one of my best friends, and you and i are in the same boat with the boyfriend thing.

You hurt my friend and for that i will never forgive you.

I don't know what to think about you. i don't like how your changing my friend, but I'm glad you make her happy. But should you ever hurt her....

Yes Emo kids do like hugs! ok so that was a dead give away as to who this is... i love you loads! you always make me smile! and even though you wish i wasn't so depressed your always there with a smile=)

I wish i could say i hate you, but i can't. Because truthfully i can't hate you. I guess i hate what you did and who you've become. You changed and tryed to be someone else and it tore our friendship apart. So i hate who you've become.

I love you, but sometimes i feel like you hate me. You constantly ignore me because of your other friend. All i can say is that I'm sorry that you got caught up in our fight.

You'll never read this, and i will never tell anyone who this is to. But i like you. You can be a retard at times, and you are constantly ignoring me, but i can't stop myself from liking you. When we just sit and talk i realize just how much i like you, but i also know that the feelings will probably never be returned.

I just don't know what to say to you. Because the words "i hate you" are just too strong.

You have mad language skillz =) that of course make me jealous. And even though you can get really annoying at times i still luv ya!

I love it when you sleep on my bed at night, and when you lay on me when i'm sick. You make me happy when i've had a bad day. (and yes i'm writing a little blip for my cat! not a guy you perverts!)

I love the strength you have, and how your just one of the guys while your around guys. Your not afraid to speak you mind, and for that i luv you.

We use to be friends, but then something happened. I don't even remember what it was, so let's just put it behind us, shall we?

In this instancei can sasy i hate you. What the hell were you thinking? you can't kiss a girl at the football game then take another to homecoming!! you are a retard! i wish you'd go back to mexico where i wouldn't ever have to see you again.

To all the preps in our High School: Get over yourselves

I'm glad you make my friend happy, and i just want to let you know that i approve. not that it matters. But don't you dare hurt her, because i will have to hurt you.

I heart you and that's all there is to it!

I wish we could hang out more often, because you are a fun person to be with.

I just wish i knew you better. Maybe we could be really good friends! =)

Your a little weird...but in a good way! hugs!

We use to be really good friends but we've sort of drifted apart. Here's hoping the tide brings us back together!

Well that's about it! and it wasn't quite as painful as i thought it would be. I would say that i hope no one takes offence from this... but that's just it! I wrote the things i wrote because they're, so if you take offence it was probably ment to be that way and i'm sorry if it hurts you. But that's the way I am...Take it or Leave it!

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